[NOPE... i TAKE iT BACK]

Me and Chaz have been wanting to buy a house ever since we got married but we have just been waiting for our lease to be up on our house that we live in now. So 2 weeks ago we finally did all of the paperwork and everything to get pre-approved for a loan because most real estate companies want you to be pre-approved before they will even show you any houses. So I faxed them the paperwork and the lady that I had been talking with had told me that she would find something out that Monday which was the 15th. Well we never heard anything. So I think it was Wednesday that she e-mailed me with a few questions and said that once she had the answers that she would be able to tell us a number on Thursday so I answered them and sent it back the same day. Thursday rolls around and we hear nothing and to make it all even better she is off on Fridays so that pushed it back to this past Monday... a week after we were supposed to have a number. So I got an e-mail Monday afternoon with a number and a very nice number at that! It was much more than we had expected and we were SOOO excited and started looking for houses Monday evening. We found a few that we were going to go ride by and look at on Tuesday before we called the realtors. Well needless to say that didnt happen... the lady was supposed to call me during my lunch break, so I didnt eat lunch and waited for her to call... well she never did! She ended up calling Chaz later that afternoon. While she was talking to him she found out that he is a 10-99 worker which basically means he is self employed, which if she would have called to confirm his employment she would have already known. Well obviously she didnt because she had no idea that he was!! So then she told him that since he was self-employed that we cant get a loan until he can prove that he has had that job for a year!! So she basically pre-approved us and then turned around and took it away because she didnt thoroughly check things out!! Needless to say I was LIVID!! I can NOT believe that she did that! It doesnt even make any since!! And on top of that she said that we couldnt get a FHA load because our credit scores were not high enough and people who are self employed cant get a FHA load!! Well that is all complete CRAP!! You only have to have 580 credit score and both of ours are in the 600's and it says that you can be self employed!! So that woman has NO freakin idea what in the world she is talking about!! It is just absolutely ridiculous!! I have a right mind to go and complain because she did not do her job very well!! Its all so aggravating because everybody else our age is getting loans and they dont have jobs that are any better that ours and our are better than a lot of theirs so I dont understand how that can get loans and we cant!! Im just so mad and aggravated with all of this crap. It just amazes me how everything seems to always go wrong for us. It seems like nothing ever goes in our favor. I just dont know. But I guess we are going to try to go somewhere else and see what they say because according to everything that I can find there is nothing that would make us not be able to get a FHA loan. So I guess just wish us luck that we can get all of this crap straightened out and be able to get a house sometime soon!!

Hopefully things will get better and start working in our favor. But for now we are just trying to stay positive :)

[BiRTHDAY'S & DR. APPOiNTMENT'S]

The past few days have been very busy for us.

On Saturday I had a surprise 21st birthday party for Chaz. Needless to say it was very hard to keep it all a secret and keep him away from the house while I got everything done. I had planned on getting a early start but that didnt happen because Friday night Chaz didnt get home from Florida until 2:30am so obviously he didnt want to get up in the morning. So by the time he got up and "Mamma called me and asked if we could go help Daddy at the new house" so by the time we got to the new house it was almost 1:00pm. I stayed over there for a little while and we got some lunch and everything like we normally would. The at about 1:45pm I told Chaz that I was getting a migraine and I was going to go home and take my medicine and lay down for a little while and then I would come back. Well of course that was all a lie :) So I finally got home and got started cooking everything at 2:00pm and everybody was supposed to be there at 4:00pm! I thought I was going to go crazy trying to get everything done but with the help of my Mamma and Nanna and pretty much everybody else the only thing that wasn't done when he got there was the chocolate icing for his cake. I think that we did pretty good getting everything done in time. Then Daddy brought him home and we all surprised him! It ended up being a lot of fun and I hope that everybody else had fun too!

Sunday was Chaz's actual birthday but we didnt really do anything. We slept late and then went and got something to eat and pretty much just relaxed for the afternoon which was nice for a change. Then we decided that we would just go ride around and look at stuff. We really enjoy just riding around out where there is nothing but land and cows and just doing nothing. We actually ended up finding a few houses that we really like so now we are just waiting to hear back from the bank about getting pre-approved for a loan and then we will just go from there and hopefully it will all work out.

On Monday I had to go back to the orthopedic surgeon again and it was not a very pleasant experience :( I have been taking Celebrex and it hasent been working which is not good. So after he poked and prodded my knee for a little while he decided that there there was fluid in it so he was going to try to get it out. BAD IDEA! First he put about 15mL of lidocaine int my knee to numb it... it hurt so bad!! Then he tried to get the fluid out and hardly even 1mL came out and he just kept digging all around and pushing on my knee trying to get it out but it just wouldnt come out. He said that the fluid is probably just so think that it wont come out through a needle. So then he put about 15 more mL in along with 2mL of solu-medrol. And then of course me being me my knee would not stop bleeding! It was soaking the gauze pads with blood and the nurse said that that is not normal for me to be bleeding like that at my age and that I needed to have it checked out. So now I have to go have that checked out. He also gave me some Voltaren gel to put on my knee 4 times a day. It is for osteoarthritis so maybe it will help me because I dont know what he will do next if this doesnt help. I just want my knee to not hurt all the time anymore! And right now it is hurting even more than usual because of everything it had done to it. Not to mention it looks like a water balloon and it is so bruised and sore. Hopefully it will get better from that soon. But anyway... after I went to the doctor we went and ate at the Varsity. It was sooooo good!! Then we went to Hard Labor Creek State Park and went fishing for a little while. Then we came home and Chaz grilled out for my Dad and Mom, Trey, Thomas and Laura. It was really good and everybody had a good time. So over all it was a good day minus my knee being traumatized. haha.

We didnt really do anything yesterday. I just worked and Chaz did stuff around the house and washed my jeep for me when I go home from work. He is such a good hubby :) And he had dinner waiting for me and we ate and then I ended up falling asleep because I didnt really feel good because of my knee and I think that I have some kind of little virus that I just cant seem to kick. I will probably end up having to go to the doctor for it eventually but we will see. Im just being stubborn I guess but oh well! Maybe it will go away on its own and soon because Im tired of feeling like crap :(

This morning Chaz brought me to work because he had to have my jeep because he is getting me new tires today! yay! Its about time considering that my tires now have 64, 000 miles on them and they are only supposed to be good for 50,000 I think it is definitely time for new ones. He is also going to change my oil since it has not been changed in like 7,000 miles. So it looks like I am going to have a whole new jeep when I get home! So today should turn out to be an eventful day. Me and Chaz are going out to eat tonight. I dont know where but he just said last night that we would go out to eat tonight so I must say that I am looking forward to that... no cooking, no dishes to wash and nothing to clean up... sounds good to me :)

I have now decided that this week is going to be the longest week ever. After everything that we have done the past few days and the pain I have been in and all. Well the fun doesnt stop today! Chaz just informed me earlier that he has been asked to go to Alabama this Saturday to judge the Alabama Limousin Field Day! I think that it is very exciting even though I am going to be pooped my the time this week is over. So that should be really fun! I just think that it is neat that he was asked to be a judge in a different state. So now I have something to look forward too for Saturday. Now I just have to find time somewhere this week to go and get Fathers Day presents. Hopefully I cant find time to do everything and get all of my homework done too! Wish me luck :)

[FiNALLY FRiDAY]

Its finally Friday!! I am so glad. It seems like this week has gone by so slow. I have had TONS of stuff to do! My summer classes are already kicking my butt! I have so much homework that has to be done TODAY and Im only done with about half of it. So it looks like I have to go home and do homework even though I have a million other things that I need to do too. I will be so glad when these 7 weeks are over... if I even survive. I hate school :(

On a better note... Chaz is coming home from Florida today. I didnt even want him to go because its not like he is going to be home forever and I want to spend all the time with him that I can before he has to leave again in probably about 2 weeks. I just dont know how I feel about all of this lately. I know that this job is pretty much the best thing that could have happened to us right now but I just really hate it! I have being away from my husband for months at a time. Some people say that they have to be away from their husbands for months at a time because they are in the army... well to me that is different because if somebody is in the army you know that they are going to have to leave sometime or another so you have time to prepare yourself for them to be gone. I only had about a day to get used to it and then he was gone. But really I didnt even have that long because his uncle called him on a Friday night and asked him if he wanted the job and he said yes and we left for Florida the next day and then the day after that he was gone. So its not like I even got to spend time with him before he had to leave because we were pretty much on the road almost the whole time. I just dont like it. He has basically been gone for a fourth of our marriage and thats not how it was supposed to be :( I just dont know what to do because he cant just quit... I guess I just have to deal with it even though I dont want to. Being married isnt about just dealing with something but I dont know what else I am supposed to do about it. Sometimes I just want to cry because I dont know what else to do. I dont want to have a marriage where he is gone all the time... at least not forever. Its fine for now because I am the only one that has to suffer the consequences of being by myself all the time, but I want to have kids some day soon and I want them to have a daddy, not some man that is their dad but they dont really know it because he is gone for months at a time and then only comes home for 2 weeks. Our kids will NOT have a life like that! I just wish that he could at least work in Georgia, that would be good enough for me because then he could come home every night. Thats all I ask for is to be able to have dinner with my husband and then go to bed in the same bed. I mean is that to much to ask for? I just hope that everything works out soon and he will get to be in Georgia. I know that this probably sounds greedy or selfish of me and all about me me me... and I need I need I need... and I want I want I want... but I didnt mean for it to come out that way... I just needed to vent... sorry :(

But I guess Im done for today. Im just sitting here at work and Im completely done with everything that I have to do today and its not even 12:30... so it looks like I have 4 more hours of nothing to do. I just hope it goes by fast.

I hope everyone has a wonderful Friday and a great weekend!

[.....]

Chaz left to go to Florida today. Not to work though, just to help his Uncle cut hay and catch cows. Im not very happy about it because he has only been home for a week and he is already gone again and hes not coming home until Friday. I mean I want to spend all the time with him that I can considering that he will be leaving again at the end of this month. But I guess there is nothing that I can do about it because he is already on his way down there as i write this :( But hopefully he will at lease be bringing back Harley and A-1 with him. I wish that I could have at least gone with him but I have to work of course. Dont get me wrong, I love my job but sometimes I hate work... now is one of those times! I would much rather be spending time with my husband. I guess thats just life though, I know Im not the only one that has to go though it... I just hate it.

Then on top of all of that my summer classes started yesterday and I am already completely overwhelmed! I am taking 4 classes in 7 weeks! I know that Im probably crazy and now Im realizing it. This is going to be an extremely stressful next 7 weeks. School... Chaz leaving again... work... trying to find a house... I dont know what I am going to do, especially when I am having to do it all by myself because Chaz is gone. Just please say a little prayer for me that I cant make it through the next 7 weeks without going crazy because I know that in no way is it going to be easy.

Well I guess thats all for today... I have to get back to my tons of homework already! How fun...

[LATELY]

Since Chaz has been home we really havent done anything eventful but it still seems like we havent stopped going since the second he got off the plane. The day he got home from the airport we came home and ate lunch and then got back in the car and headed to McDonough to Summit so that Chaz could get some new stuff for his truck. I was fun though, I was just glad to be with him finally! Then on Wednesday as soon as I got home from work we went to Athens to Athens Regional to see my Nanny. She is doing great and will hopefully get to come home soon! Then when we got home from there we went straight to Wal-Mart to get stuff for dinner. Well to our luck all of their refrigerated stuff had gone bad because it started blowing hot air, so obviously we didnt get any meat for dinner. We ended up getting random stuff because thats all there was. So then on Thursday we made yet another trip to the store but we went to Piggly Wiggly that time and we got crab legs and shrimp for dinner! They were so good! But we didnt end up getting done eating until like 10:30 and then we still had to clean everything up so we didnt get in the bed until like 11:00. Then on Friday when I got home from work we went to Tractor Supply and Wal-Mart to get some stuff and decided that we didnt want to cook so we just decided that we would go eat mexican, and it was oh so good! So then we finally got home from all of that and didnt really do much but still didnt get in the bed until like 11:30 or so. Then I had to work at Walton this weekend and had to be at work at 7:00am. So as soon as I got home from work at like 2:00 we left again and went and got lunch and then headed south to Hawkinsville... 2 hours away. We went to watch Chaz's friend run his truck at the Elko Mud Bog. It was pretty fun except that they were all going so slow! It took forever so finally they still were not done and it was already midnight so we just decided to leave because it had just gotten boring. We didnt get home until 2:30am and I had to be at work at 7:00am again this morning so I only got 3 1/2 hours of sleep last night and I am so tired its not even funny. As for the rest of our day today... Im sure that we will end up having to go somewhere to get something even though I just want to lay around the house and do nothing all day. But I do have to go home and get all of my school stuff together and organized because I start summer semester tomorrow : / Im not really looking forward to it but Im just ready to get it over with since the semester only lasts 7 weeks. So hopefully it wont be that bad. But hopefully the rest of this day will be good!

Well anyway... I guess thats pretty much all that has been going on since Chaz got home... nothing exciting but at least he is home!!

[FiNALLY]

Chaz is FINALLY home after 51 days! I am so glad that he is home! It feels like I have not seen him in forever. But I am so very glad that he is home and had a safe trip, despite a 3 hour layover in Charlotte. He will hopefully be going to Florida at the end of this month. I really hope he does because it will be close enough that I could go see him on the weekends if I wanted to. So we'll see.

On another note, my Nanny is doing very good! She was moved out of the CVICU yesterday and into a step-down room so thats good. So she had a long and stressful day yesterday but my Mamma said that she was doing much better today so thats really good! We are going to go see her tomorrow and I cant wait!

Well I guess this one is just going to have to be short and sweet because we are grilling out and I have to get everything started and go spend time with my hubby :)