[PAiN & LOVE♥]

I went to my orthopedic surgeon on Tuesday. My physical therapy has not been helping... it has actually been making my knees hurt worse and now my hip is bothering me too. I told my doctor this and he told me that he basically has no idea what is wrong with me and my physical therapist cant figure anything out either. So my doctor put me on a new medicine called Neurontin. It is actually for seizures but can be used for nerve damage. He said that he thinks that I may have a damaged nerve in my knee and wants to see if this medicine will help me. I'm pretty sure that this is a last resort because he said that he wants to try this one last thing before we resort to surgery. He said that if he did surgery he would basically just go in and look and see what is in there that is not right. So far all the medicine has done is help me sleep :/ which is pretty much just a side effect but at least for once I am sleeping! haha. I hope the medicine works but then again I would rather him just go ahead and do surgery and fix it instead of me having to take a pill everyday for the rest of my life to keep my knee from hurting. He said that he doesn't want me to have to go through surgery again but I told him that I didn't care because what haven't I been through at this point? So I go back in a month and I guess we will just go from there. Until then I have to keep going to physical therapy :(

On a better note... I have been working with Harley since we got her up here in Sunday. And just a FYI I have been doing it all by myself since Chaz has been in Florida. Everyday she has came closer and closer to me just by me having her awesome hot pink feed bucket with some feed in and by me talking to her. Yesterday when I went to feed her I was absolutely shocked! I did my "bucket trick" as I like to call it and she came RUNNiNG to me and started eating it! And the she put her nose on my stomach and I petted her!! It was amazing! That was the first time that I have touched her when she was somewhere that she could get away from me. It was the best feeling ever! So I am pretty proud of myself for doing it all by myself without antibody's help. Chaz is proud of me to because I really don't think that he thought that I could do it... but I did! And now I think that he is a little bit jealous because Harley will not go to him, even if he does the "bucket trick". haha. It makes me feel good that she trusts me that much and not anybody else. I know that it sounds weird but I think that we already have a special bond together because I am the first person that she has trusted like that. I love her! She is so sweet and such a pretty little heifer! haha. I will try to remember to take some pictures of her today and put them on here. Chaz is going to attempt to put a halter on her today. We tried to do it yesterday but her awesome new hot pink halter is not formed good yet so it was to hard to get it on here while she was trying to get away from it. So Chaz is going to use his old halter that is formed good to catch her this afternoon so that I can start touching her more and brushing her. I cant wait. I just hope that I don't get kicked or stepped on. but if I do I guess its just part of being a cowgirl :) I get up every morning 30 minutes earlier than I used to and I go feed Harley and A-1, then I go to work. Then I go back in the evenings and do my "bucket trick" on Harley and feed them. But I love doing it though. It will be even better when Harley is completely tame and I can just walk up to her and put a halter on her and walk her around and give he baths and everything. And yes... I will give her lots of baths. You have to bathe show cows a lot because it keeps their hair clean and soft and it helps it grow. So I will be doing lots of cow bathing :)

I am so glad that it is Friday because I cant wait to go home and play with Harley and get to do stuff with her all weekend! Now if this day will just hurry up and be over so I can go home!

JESSiCA CHERiSH♥CHARLES WESLEY
FOREVER & EVER NO MATTER WHAT... WE PROMiSE :)
10.18.08-FOREVER♥