[ACCEPTED!!]

I finally found out that I got ACCEPTED!! It feels like I have been waiting forever! I was starting that think that maybe I didn't get it. But I checked my e-mail yesterday and had an e-mail saying that I had been accepted and that my acceptance letter and all of the other information were in the mail and should be here soon. I am so excited! I want this so bad. So now I am just ready to get registered, get all of my books and get started. I will hopefully be done by this time next year. Wish me luck!! :)

[3 LESS BODY PARTS]

I am only 1 day post-op right now but for the most part I am feeling okay. I had my surgery yesterday, 9.11.09 and 7:00am. Of course all I remember is getting my IV, talking to all of the doctors and going back to the operating room, then the next thing I knew I was in recovery. But anyway... now for the details. I had quite a few different things wrong once my surgeon got into my knee. My cruciate ligament was 4 times as big as it should be and was taking up the whole front of my knee so he took out most of it to make it the size that it should be. I also had a medial plaque shelf that he took out that should not have been there. He also removed some of the lining of my knee. He thinks that this should really help me because all of those things could have been causing me pain. He also told me that in the 25 years that he has been doing knee surgeries that he has never seen anything like mine... go figure. I guess I am just special. haha. So I am just really hoping and praying that this will help me. I think it should though. I am still in a pretty good bit of pain right now though, but the next day is always the worst day. I have just been taking my pain medicine every 4 hours and keeping it elevated, putting ice on it for one hour and then off for an hour, and only getting up to go to the bathroom. All of that is pretty hard for me to do because I don't like to be stuck inside on the couch. I also have to use crutches for a few days but I am doing good with them so far and actually using them. I tired to go outside earlier and sit on our bench but by the time I made it out there my foot was starting to swell and turn purple so Chaz made me come right back inside and back on the couch with my foot propped up. But I get to take all of my bandages off tonight so I am excited about that because they are starting to itch.

Now I am going to brag... on my amazing husband :) Chaz has been so wonderful! I don't know what I would do without him. He has been waiting on me hand and foot ever since we got home yesterday. He even got up with me in the middle of the night to help me get up and to the bathroom. Everything I have needed he has got for me. Including refilling my cup with juice every 30 minutes because my mouth and throat are still so dry from the anesthesia that I drink more than should be humanly possible. The he helps me get op to go to the bathroom ever 45 minutes to an hours because I drink so much. haha. And then putting on and taking the ice off of my knee every hour. He also gets me a snack every 4 hours so that I can take my pain medicine because I have to take it with food. And then on top of all of that he lets me watch whatever I want to watch on TV :) He also keeps me from doing the stuff that I'm not supposed to do because I am really bad about not obeying doctors orders when it involves me just laying on the couch and not being able to do anything for myself. I just really don't know what I would do without him. He is the best husband that I could have ever asked for! He is taking such good care of me. I love him soooooo much!

I have also had another little helper that has been helping his Daddy take care of me. Cam has been sleeping with me a lot since I got home. He is such a sweet little baby :) Here he is helping take care of Mommy a few hours after I got home.

He is such a good little helper :)

So hopefully I can be on a speedy road to recovery now and that I can be pain free after I am healed. So please continue to pray for me! And thank you to those who have already been praying for me throughout my long journey with my messed up knee :)

[GOiNG UNDER THE KNiFE]

On Friday I am going to have knee surgery... again. This will be my second knee surgery in 2 years. I really hope that they can figure out what is wrong because if my doctor cant find anything then I will just have to live with the pain because we have exhausted all of the other options and surgery was the last resort... and here we are. So I just hope and pray that it can be fixed. My knee is very strange... the surgery that I had done in 2007 was done by a different surgeon than I am going to now. The surgeon that I got to now has never heard of the thing that I had removed from my knee by the other surgeon. So he is still puzzled about that he says. Also because nothing ever shows up on my x-rays or MRI's he has no idea what is causing all of my pain. So when I go in for my surgery he is basically just going to look around inside of my whole entire knee and see if there is anything that it not normal and hopefully he will font something and he said that whatever he finds he will fix. I know you don't want for something to be wrong with you but in this case I want something to be wrong with me so that my doctor can find it and fix it rather than me just have to keep going on with my life living with all of this pain. I go tomorrow morning at 8:00 for my pre-op. That's when they will tell me what time my actual surgery will be, how long my recovery time will be and all of that other good stuff. Hopefully I wont be out of work for to long because I definitely cant afford to be. But over all I'm not worried about anything because I have been through this before. This will be my 3rd orthopedic surgery in 2 years and overall it will be my 6th surgery. So all of this is definitely nothing new to me which is pretty bad to say since I am only 22. But I would rather get everything fixed now while I am young so that I can recover faster and then I wont have to worry about having all of this done when me and Chaz have kids. So please just pray that everything goes well and that my knee can be fixed.

If you didn't already know Chaz has not worked in over 3 months now. We have been waiting to hear something from his uncle about where he will be going. Well he talked to his uncle and he doesn't have a definite date or place but he will know soon, his uncle just has to wait for the boss to get back in the country and then he will be able to find out a definite answer. But as of now Chaz could go to California, Spain or Ireland. I hope that he goes to California just because I don't think that I will like him leaving the country for a long time. But we will see. I am just going to pray that he goes there. So hopefully we will hear some good news soon.

But I guess that's all that has been happening lately. I will hopefully feel good enough to post Saturday or Sunday about my surgery.


[JESSiCA CHERiSH♥CHARLES WESLEY]

[DiFFERENT STUFF]

Not much has been going on lately. I have just been waiting to find out if I got into NSU or not. I am starting to get very aggravated with them. In order to be accepted into the program that I am applying to you have to have at least 2 years or work experience in the medical field so you have to send them a resume. Well I was not aware of this but as soon as I found out that they needed it I was told that I could fax it so that they would get it faster than mailing it. Well... I faxed it for the first time on August 27. Two days later it was still not showing up on my account that they had received it so I sent them an e-mail asking if they had got it... they had not. No by the time I figured out that they had not got it it was Tuesday of this week. So I immediately faxed it again to the number that I was told. And as of today it is still not showing up on my account that they received it. I have since then sent 3 e-mails trying to find out if they received it this time or not. Well so far I have heard nothing. I sent one Tuesday, Wednesday and yesterday. So now I am just getting ill that I cant find anything out. And mind you... I got a fax confirmation both times I faxed it. So I don't know what the problem is but I'm getting fed up with it. I mean school starts next month and I still don't know anything. That doesn't leave very much time to pay tuition, register for classes and get my books. So I just hope that I hear something soon.

On another note me and Chaz are desperately looking for somewhere else to live. We hate where we live now and do not feel safe at all. We do not feel safe because in the past week we have had 2 of our vehicles broken into and someone tried to steal our boat but we heard them and scared them away. It is getting ridiculous when you cant even feel safe in your own house. So if anybody knows of any houses for rent in the Good Hope, Madison, Bostwick areas PLEASE let us know.

On a BETTER note... I have been working with Harley a lot more and she has come a long way. Now you can walk right up to her and not have to chase her around to catch her. She loves go on walks and to get a bath. She is also learning how to eat sugar cubes but for now she just slobbers all over your hand while she licks the sugar cube. Its cute though :) She also likes to swing her tail all around when she is getting a bath just so she can get me all wet. She is so sweet though. I can stand beside her and she will put her head up against me because she wants me to scratch her head. I love my little Miss Harley! And I cant wait until I get to show her :)

♥ME & MiSS HARLEY♥

We now have 2 more family members at our house! Well they are not new to the family but they are new to our house. My kitties Destiny and Reagan now live with us. It took them a few days to get adjusted but they are fine now and they love it there. Destiny likes to prowl in the tall grass and see what she can catch. Reagan likes to lay in the bushes and watch my birds on the bird feeders. But she never tries to get them... she just watches. They really like to sit with Chaz while he grills out. I think that they are waiting for him to share the food with them. I am so glad that they get to live with us now. They are so loving and are always glad to see you when ever you are outside.

Well I guess that's about it for now. Nothing to much has really been happening. But just pray that I hear something from NSU soon and that me and Chaz can find another house so that we don't have to be scared that someone is going to break in every night.

JESSiCA CHERiSH♥CHARLES WESLEY

[WAiTiNG...]

If you didn't already know... I can get kind of impatient about somethings. Well right now I am being impatient. I finally submitted my application to NSU and mailed my high school transcript and my transcript request to ABAC to have my transcript sent to NSU, my recommendations, which were a requirement, and a copy of my CPhT. certification. And I already filled out my financial aid application, which I better be able to get! So everything on my side of it is DONE! Now I just have to wait... NOT fun. I am going to drive myself crazy. I just keep going over everything in my mind and trying to think if there is any reason that I shouldn't get it but I cant think of anything. I meet all of the requirements and had 2 great recommendations from 2 pharmacists. But still I am going to drive myself nuts until I find out. But the good thing is that they do admissions on a rolling bases which means that they go through the applications as they get them. Usually when that is the case you find out something faster. So I really hope to hear something hopefully by the end of the week. So hopefully I will that way I wont be crazy for to long. Poor Chaz :( haha. And so that I can have a good weekend. I just want this so bad and I am NOT giving up! I have came way to far and my parents have spent way to much money for me not to get my degree! So please just pray for me and wish me luck that I get in while I sit here and go looney waiting...

[NEW STUDENT?]

Well I finally did it... I filled out my application online for NSU. Although... I haven't submitted it yet I will as soon as I get all of my stuff ready to mail off. I just want to look over it again before it is final. I am VERY VERY nervous about it though. I don't know why I am so nervous because I definitely meet all of the requirements to get it. But I feel sick every time that I think about it! I guess I just want it so bad that I will be crushed if I dont get in this time. I just hope that I do so that I can get started in October and hurry up and get done. But if I don't get in I will just apply again in December to start in January. But I just hope and pray that I get in this time and don't have to go through this again. The application deadline is September 1st so I have to get on the ball. I hope that I can get everything done this week and then I will hopefully find something out soon! So just pray that I get in!

[PAiN & LOVE♥]

I went to my orthopedic surgeon on Tuesday. My physical therapy has not been helping... it has actually been making my knees hurt worse and now my hip is bothering me too. I told my doctor this and he told me that he basically has no idea what is wrong with me and my physical therapist cant figure anything out either. So my doctor put me on a new medicine called Neurontin. It is actually for seizures but can be used for nerve damage. He said that he thinks that I may have a damaged nerve in my knee and wants to see if this medicine will help me. I'm pretty sure that this is a last resort because he said that he wants to try this one last thing before we resort to surgery. He said that if he did surgery he would basically just go in and look and see what is in there that is not right. So far all the medicine has done is help me sleep :/ which is pretty much just a side effect but at least for once I am sleeping! haha. I hope the medicine works but then again I would rather him just go ahead and do surgery and fix it instead of me having to take a pill everyday for the rest of my life to keep my knee from hurting. He said that he doesn't want me to have to go through surgery again but I told him that I didn't care because what haven't I been through at this point? So I go back in a month and I guess we will just go from there. Until then I have to keep going to physical therapy :(

On a better note... I have been working with Harley since we got her up here in Sunday. And just a FYI I have been doing it all by myself since Chaz has been in Florida. Everyday she has came closer and closer to me just by me having her awesome hot pink feed bucket with some feed in and by me talking to her. Yesterday when I went to feed her I was absolutely shocked! I did my "bucket trick" as I like to call it and she came RUNNiNG to me and started eating it! And the she put her nose on my stomach and I petted her!! It was amazing! That was the first time that I have touched her when she was somewhere that she could get away from me. It was the best feeling ever! So I am pretty proud of myself for doing it all by myself without antibody's help. Chaz is proud of me to because I really don't think that he thought that I could do it... but I did! And now I think that he is a little bit jealous because Harley will not go to him, even if he does the "bucket trick". haha. It makes me feel good that she trusts me that much and not anybody else. I know that it sounds weird but I think that we already have a special bond together because I am the first person that she has trusted like that. I love her! She is so sweet and such a pretty little heifer! haha. I will try to remember to take some pictures of her today and put them on here. Chaz is going to attempt to put a halter on her today. We tried to do it yesterday but her awesome new hot pink halter is not formed good yet so it was to hard to get it on here while she was trying to get away from it. So Chaz is going to use his old halter that is formed good to catch her this afternoon so that I can start touching her more and brushing her. I cant wait. I just hope that I don't get kicked or stepped on. but if I do I guess its just part of being a cowgirl :) I get up every morning 30 minutes earlier than I used to and I go feed Harley and A-1, then I go to work. Then I go back in the evenings and do my "bucket trick" on Harley and feed them. But I love doing it though. It will be even better when Harley is completely tame and I can just walk up to her and put a halter on her and walk her around and give he baths and everything. And yes... I will give her lots of baths. You have to bathe show cows a lot because it keeps their hair clean and soft and it helps it grow. So I will be doing lots of cow bathing :)

I am so glad that it is Friday because I cant wait to go home and play with Harley and get to do stuff with her all weekend! Now if this day will just hurry up and be over so I can go home!

JESSiCA CHERiSH♥CHARLES WESLEY
FOREVER & EVER NO MATTER WHAT... WE PROMiSE :)
10.18.08-FOREVER♥

[MOO]

I think that we had a pretty eventful weekend. Chaz was in Florida all last week helping his cousin Jason catch cows and bale hay before he had to go back to Bogota,Columbia this week. Some of the cows that they caught were our cows. We have been trying to bring them up here for months it seems like but have never been able to... until Saturday! Chaz finally brought them home! I am so glad that they are finally here. The 2 mamma cows, Maddie and Noel, are in Gray. I wish they didn't have to be so far away but at least they are closer than Florida. And Maddie is 35-50 days pregnant! Yay another baby! The vet said that it was to early to tell if Noel was pregnant but hopefully she is too. The baby cows, Harley and A-1 are at me Pape and Nanna's house which is only about 1 mile from our house so they are very close to us. Harley is my heifer that I am hopefully going to show sometime soon. She is almost 11 months old. We are going to start breaking her when Chaz gets home. I'm sure it will definitely be an experience! But none the less I cant wait to do it. So anyway... Chaz had to borrow his Uncle Wilbur's truck and cow trailer to bring them up here so he had to take it back down there. He left last night and hopefully wont be down there to long. He has to help Jason bale 20 more acres of hay before it rains so I hope that it doesn't rain and he will get to come home on Tuesday. But I have been watching the weather... like always... and so far there is no rain in sight for central Florida. I just hope that it stays that way for the next 2 days. I hate when he is gone for a week and then comes home for like 24 hours and then has to leave again for 2 or 3 days. I miss him :(

On another note we are still nowhere with getting a loan. I guess we are just going to give up for now because nothing is looking very promising. We are just going to sign another 1 year lease where we are now and then try to get a loan when Chaz gets his tax returns sometime during the beginning of the year because everybody that we talked to said that they had to have that before they can give us a loan. I just hope and pray that they were not lying. If you cant tell I just really don't trust loan people these days because so many of them have basically lied to us since we started trying to get pre-approved for a loan. I'm just ready to buy a house and be done with it!

On a happy note my Daddy and Mamma finally moved into their new house!! I am so excited because now they are only about 1.2 miles away from us! And if you don't know my Mamma is my best friend so I love being that close to her so that I can see here everyday :) And I know that they are so glad to finally be living there. All of the animals love it too because they are just free to run around and you don't have to worry about them running into the road. Also Jett loves being able to go swimming at Papa and Nanna's house whenever he wants to. haha. Also my Daddy had to have a heart cath done last Thursday. Everything went great and the doctor said that his heart is perfect! So now he is just a little bit sore and cant lift anything that weighs more than a milk jug until this Thursday. He also cant swim until this Thursday and Jett is very sad about that because Daddy would usually take him swimming everyday. But anyway it is just good to know that there is no blockage or no nothing at all.

Now yet another update on my stupid knee. It still hurts and now my other knee is really hurting me. I go back to the doctor tomorrow morning so I guess I will just see what he has to say. I'm just not sure that all this physical therapy is working. the first 2 weeks actually made it worse so for the past 2 weeks all I have been doing is stretches. I don't want to have surgery again but right now to me it is looking like that is what is going to have to happen :( And I have physical therapy tomorrow afternoon too. Or I might not if my doctor decides that it is not helping any. So I get to spend my day in Athens tomorrow with my Mamma because she is going to meet me there after my doctors appointment so that we can find her some curtains for the new house and so that I can be occupied until my physical therapy appointment. We are going to go eat at the Varsity for lunch! We cant wait. We love that place!

Well I guess that it pretty much it for now! We hope you have a great day :)